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Dark Inspiration from The Abyss

Inspiration is easy, it just requires being bored for a little while or reading a novel or realizing you’re going to die someday and be forgotten.

I tried to think of the things that inspire me. Not in the “What a wonderful sentiment!” way. But things that motivate me to actually get work done. Inspiration I get from staring into the abyss. That’s what heroes in stories have had to do since the beginning of time, and stories just explain us to ourselves.

For me, the creative cycle requires a dip into depressing waters. Those waters look a little like this…

  • I am going to die never achieving the things I want 
  • I am mediocre and delusional about what I’m capable of doing
  • My last (movie/story/script) was totally average and everyone understands why–except for me
  • I should have achieved the things I want to achieve already. It’s a failure I haven’t
  • Irrelevance is looming and there is no turning back once that happens
  • My failures far outweigh any successes I’ve had
  • I will work hard at what I love my entire life but it won’t be enough and it won’t be remembered
  • I am on the wrong creative track but a blind spot prevents me from seeing how to fix it
  • I’ll realize too late what I should have been doing all along

Dark thoughts. Instead of letting them destroy my creative spark, they motivate me to go prove every single one of them wrong. The abyss is helpful that way.

  • Greg

    I have a hard time looking at it your way, but I need to. You continue to inspire.